Lucian’s response to an anon Tumblr comment

la-lien:

Thank you Anonymous internet user. I’m glad I got one too.

To
answer your question….

….I don’t really know. I’ve had a
love/hate/love/seeing other people/lust/on a break relationship with
Social Media for quite some time now.

As I alluded to in my
first post, although it was probably hard to make sense of, since pretty
much anything I write tends to end up cryptic for no good reason, but
the whole LAlien thing began simply because I wanted to be more involved on socials and in a different way as to how I was using it before. Let me explain.

The current state of the acting industry as much as it pains me to say, holds your social media and the weight it can bring in very high regard. This isn’t an aspect I’m entirely comfortable with, but alas, it is a fact. Thus, you must be active on socials.

So I was, and I wasn’t really using them in a thoughtful or true manner, or experimenting, or being very creative or even being myself. I was posting because I thought I had too.

 

I got tired of that. I didn’t feel comfortable with it. Or maybe I just got lazy, and sick of it. But I stopped.

I found my way back to it by accident, with the LAlien thing, and it felt nice to be posting something that resembled an authentic voice for once. Nothing that made any particular sense, but most of all, I enjoyed being on social media again. People seemed to enjoy my voice. Whether that’s true or not, who’s to say. But as I said, the biggest take-away was that I enjoyed it, and still do.

I enjoy creating things, in my own special little way.

Before LAlien, I was never very comfortable posting, because I didn’t really know who or what I was posting for.

Trying to be present on social media for the sake of it was tiresome, and not at all organic.

Here, I’ve gone off on a tangent again, do forgive. I’m forming new thoughts, even as I type this. I’m perhaps not speaking as eloquently and sensibly on the matter as I could.

There is a lot of thoughts vying for attention here right now. I’ll try to focus again, and go directly back to you question.

What is my intent.

My intent, is to be able to use social media as a potentially viable tool to create some stuff. Stuff shall remained lazily categorized as stuff for now, as I don’t want to say I’m going to create X Y Z, and then go make A B C.

I guess maybe to replace ‘intent’ with ‘why’ makes it a little easier.

An answer that will change drastically over time, and a very short space of time most likely.

But right now, as for the why, it’s so I can answer questions like this, because I enjoy it, and I like being made to think. So thank you.